Monday, May 29, 2006

Les Fueles Mortes

Evita was twenty eight years old when she got married.

She wove herself a man out of rainbows and stardust. His bowels were doorways leading into other doorways. When he spoke it was entrancing...like hearing the memory of a dream, or music one has forgotten and quite remember.

“I am yours to command,” the woven man said. He bowed low and curtsied as if he were gentleman of noble birth.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Monday, April 10, 2006

my sister's voice
calls to
me

across the void.
I hear
her,

hear her cry.
my heart
beats

palpitates
agitates air
creates transparent wind

If I could
fly I
would.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

On this planet of three moons
there is a woman who never sleeps

With nimble fingers she pulls
patterns from the air

stardust and moonlight
are her threads

she knows no rest
she only weaves...
Ruptura

**excerpted writing inspired by this painting...**

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Now I remember
what it's like

to leave behind
shadows and shades

jealous reflections
of my true self.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

http://www.iupui.edu/~lmena1/varo/insomnio.jpg

Sometimes
When I am dreaming
I am seeing
How light illuminates
Elucidates
Recreates
Creatures
Of darkness
Beaming

Through
The hallways
Through
These doorways
The soft
Flit-flatter
Of their wings

Caresses darkness
Mocks
This lightness
Where my eyes
never find
their
sleeping.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Memories of Lola Conchita

If you could see me now, what would you say?

Remember those long summer days?

How little I appreciated
the pinch of your fingers
in the shadow of my thighs

I resented
the sound of your voice
the feel of the switch on my bottom

You in Nanay's kitchen
conjuring up secret delights
sweetmeats made out of melon rind

the sour santol
made sourer still

sugar could not mask
the bitter tang
of santol peel.

Years later, I look back and remember

your voice
singing forgotten
melodies, while I patiently

massage pale appendages
rendered motionless by time.

Graciano Lopez Jaena
you said to me when I told you
of the first time I was published.

And from some lost well, you dredged up
tales untold of this genius old man
wandering out of the house
with non-matching socks.

It's only natural
you said
you accepted my news with such aplomb

as if you'd seen it coming
all along.

And you traced for me
the lines of forgotten blood

(reasoning blood binds us
to our passions)

I still hear you enumerating the lines
of blood leading back somehow
to a great forgetful man.

Time goldened you.

I forgot to resent
your strictures
the ineccessant adherence
to discipline.

You told me tales
of your childhood

I could almost imagine
that big house
and you

a white skinned, mestiza princess
gulping down rich bonbons

You were so proud reliving those days

Of being
your father's favorite.

And I

I swallowed up your words
gulped down your memories
like chocolate

Years later
I tried to write about you
But the words never came.

Until today.

Looking at a portrait
of an old woman

I remember you

your words

your memories

your face


I carry them still
inside me.
Retrato de la Abuela

1.

Litrato
ni Lola
tanda ko pa

Ang araw lumipas
parang bagwis
mabilis

tinakas
ka ng
panahon, dinala sa

kabilang doon kung
saan hindi
kita

mahabol.

2.

Ngunit
ang iyong
mga kwento't tula

tanda
ko pa.
ang tinig mo

dala-dala
sa guni-guni.
sa kabilang dako

nawalay
sa iyo
piling pa rin

dito,
doon, diyan
sakop ng damdamin.



***

I wrote this poem, looking at a portrait sketched by Remedios Varo, depicting la abuela. This brought back to me memories of long afternoons listening to my grandma reminisce and talk about the past.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

To be Reborn

They had lived too long by themselves, surrounded by the silence of the wood.

“Surely, there are other worlds left to explore,” the woman said.

“I don’t know about other worlds,” her husband replied. “I only know the moon that shines above this grove and the tilting of these planets, the wonder of their courses as they traverse the celestial sky.”

“Let us leave this place,” the woman said. “My bones turn soft from indolence and my skin has grown translucent as the moonbeams.”

“You made a promise,” her husband replied. “As long as these woods stand, as long as the moon rises, as long as I breathe, we are bound to this place.”

In the night, the woman arose. She sheathed herself in the rays of the starlight and stole to where her husband lay sleeping under the branches of the beech tree.

He lay so quiet. Gone were the cares of the day and it seemed his brow reflected the light of the moon. Looking into his face, she almost lost her resolve.

But a cloud swept across the face of the moon. Hardening her heart, she raised the knife.

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Later, in the silence of their home, she waited for his return. She listened for the sound of his footsteps, for his hand on the door.

“Come,” he said.

She saw the lines of weariness etched by years onto the parchment of his face.

“I would have kept you here with me,” he whispered.

He flung open his hands, and she saw where the bonds between them had been severed.

“I cannot stay with you forever,” she said. “My life consists of more worlds than this. I promise you, I will return to visit you each year. Each year, when the sickle moon returns, I will come and kiss you awake.”

He bowed his head and she saw the shine of his tears.

“Farewell,” she whispered.

She broke through the curtain of time. Her body flowed through the woodwork, breaking through the barrier of what is.

"I would have followed you," he said.

But his voice fell into silence, echoing into the echoes her passing left behind.

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To Remedios Varo

You fled and fled
From one continent to the other
Escaping the hand
That sought to erase
Art and artistry
Beauty and the eye

You came and came
To a continent
Hungry for your brush
Where the landscape
Soon became inhabited
By creations
Of your mind

Come again
Revisit hungry poets
Who long to dream
As you