Wednesday, March 29, 2006

http://www.iupui.edu/~lmena1/varo/insomnio.jpg

Sometimes
When I am dreaming
I am seeing
How light illuminates
Elucidates
Recreates
Creatures
Of darkness
Beaming

Through
The hallways
Through
These doorways
The soft
Flit-flatter
Of their wings

Caresses darkness
Mocks
This lightness
Where my eyes
never find
their
sleeping.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Memories of Lola Conchita

If you could see me now, what would you say?

Remember those long summer days?

How little I appreciated
the pinch of your fingers
in the shadow of my thighs

I resented
the sound of your voice
the feel of the switch on my bottom

You in Nanay's kitchen
conjuring up secret delights
sweetmeats made out of melon rind

the sour santol
made sourer still

sugar could not mask
the bitter tang
of santol peel.

Years later, I look back and remember

your voice
singing forgotten
melodies, while I patiently

massage pale appendages
rendered motionless by time.

Graciano Lopez Jaena
you said to me when I told you
of the first time I was published.

And from some lost well, you dredged up
tales untold of this genius old man
wandering out of the house
with non-matching socks.

It's only natural
you said
you accepted my news with such aplomb

as if you'd seen it coming
all along.

And you traced for me
the lines of forgotten blood

(reasoning blood binds us
to our passions)

I still hear you enumerating the lines
of blood leading back somehow
to a great forgetful man.

Time goldened you.

I forgot to resent
your strictures
the ineccessant adherence
to discipline.

You told me tales
of your childhood

I could almost imagine
that big house
and you

a white skinned, mestiza princess
gulping down rich bonbons

You were so proud reliving those days

Of being
your father's favorite.

And I

I swallowed up your words
gulped down your memories
like chocolate

Years later
I tried to write about you
But the words never came.

Until today.

Looking at a portrait
of an old woman

I remember you

your words

your memories

your face


I carry them still
inside me.
Retrato de la Abuela

1.

Litrato
ni Lola
tanda ko pa

Ang araw lumipas
parang bagwis
mabilis

tinakas
ka ng
panahon, dinala sa

kabilang doon kung
saan hindi
kita

mahabol.

2.

Ngunit
ang iyong
mga kwento't tula

tanda
ko pa.
ang tinig mo

dala-dala
sa guni-guni.
sa kabilang dako

nawalay
sa iyo
piling pa rin

dito,
doon, diyan
sakop ng damdamin.



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I wrote this poem, looking at a portrait sketched by Remedios Varo, depicting la abuela. This brought back to me memories of long afternoons listening to my grandma reminisce and talk about the past.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

To be Reborn

They had lived too long by themselves, surrounded by the silence of the wood.

“Surely, there are other worlds left to explore,” the woman said.

“I don’t know about other worlds,” her husband replied. “I only know the moon that shines above this grove and the tilting of these planets, the wonder of their courses as they traverse the celestial sky.”

“Let us leave this place,” the woman said. “My bones turn soft from indolence and my skin has grown translucent as the moonbeams.”

“You made a promise,” her husband replied. “As long as these woods stand, as long as the moon rises, as long as I breathe, we are bound to this place.”

In the night, the woman arose. She sheathed herself in the rays of the starlight and stole to where her husband lay sleeping under the branches of the beech tree.

He lay so quiet. Gone were the cares of the day and it seemed his brow reflected the light of the moon. Looking into his face, she almost lost her resolve.

But a cloud swept across the face of the moon. Hardening her heart, she raised the knife.

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Later, in the silence of their home, she waited for his return. She listened for the sound of his footsteps, for his hand on the door.

“Come,” he said.

She saw the lines of weariness etched by years onto the parchment of his face.

“I would have kept you here with me,” he whispered.

He flung open his hands, and she saw where the bonds between them had been severed.

“I cannot stay with you forever,” she said. “My life consists of more worlds than this. I promise you, I will return to visit you each year. Each year, when the sickle moon returns, I will come and kiss you awake.”

He bowed his head and she saw the shine of his tears.

“Farewell,” she whispered.

She broke through the curtain of time. Her body flowed through the woodwork, breaking through the barrier of what is.

"I would have followed you," he said.

But his voice fell into silence, echoing into the echoes her passing left behind.

##
To Remedios Varo

You fled and fled
From one continent to the other
Escaping the hand
That sought to erase
Art and artistry
Beauty and the eye

You came and came
To a continent
Hungry for your brush
Where the landscape
Soon became inhabited
By creations
Of your mind

Come again
Revisit hungry poets
Who long to dream
As you

Friday, March 03, 2006

To be Reborned

She has lived too long in the solitary of these woods. Surrounded by the sound of the wind and the clapping of bare branches. Her windows open out into other worlds, her body has adopted itself to time travel. See how she breaks easily through the barriers of wall.

Each time is like being reborn.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Catching the Moon

Because
She no longer remembered
What it was like to be a child

She thought to capture the moon

**

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

experiments with the moon



1.

Hiding in shadows
Trees, moon
Stars

Create
Tangled dances.
Tiptoe of light --

Denizens
Of country
Sky and wood

Entertain
Night spectres
When least expected.


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2.

Speak to me
Before the red sun rises

I am the wild child
You saw in the woods

I have seen stars
Dancing with the helix

And the moon
Cavorting naked through the trees

Speak to me, speak of me
I might visit you again tonight.

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3.


She did not listen to her mother’s voice.
Running away from the confines
Of tall convent walls
She found her way
Through woods and woods

Her mother’s voice
Was like the lonely cry
Of a nightbird

Like the lonely music
Of trees clapping their bare hands
To the tune of a mad moon’s dancing

Is this the reflection I sought
She asks the moon
Is this the light I longed to own?
Shadow in Shadow

If you find me
Will you remember
We are shadow in shadow

Two, one, entwined
An ensemble
Inseparable.
City of Somnambulists


I have lived too long in this city
Of floating somnambulists

See my hair has grown tangled
like the streets of this place

Tangled like the dreams
Haunting my shadow

My shadow floats
Above the pavement

Above fragments
Of shattered memories

Pick up these shadows
Re-assemble broken pieces

I am too sleepy
My hands cannot find the glue

Who is Remedios Varo?

Remedios Varo According to the Varo Registry she was a Spanish painter. Elsewhere, I am informed that she is one of the lesser known of the great surrealist painters...that her name is associated with Dali and other surrealists of this time.

I found her via the Byzarium Webzine, and after writing a short piece inspired by her Creation of the Birds, I found myself compelled to discover more of her artwork.

Since I'm pretty lowtech and still have to learn how to put pics here, I'll insert urls leading to images that inspire poetry that appears here.

Perhaps when you see her work, you'll understand why I love it .